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Jesus called his twelve disciples to him and gave them authority to drive out impure spirits and to heal every disease and sickness.  Matt 10:1


I wonder how ecstatic the disciples were to be called to such a powerful ministry of deliverance?

But do you think Jesus connected giving his disciples authority to perform great miracles, to His call for them to lose their life?  (In context, later in Matt. 10:38 – Whoever does not take up their cross and follow me is not worthy of me. 39 Whoever finds their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life for my sake will find it.)

In other words, did the powerful calling, assignment and anointing upon the disciples, come with the understanding and expectation of 100% sacrifice, dedication to Jesus – even to the point of losing your life?

Are we willing to take up our cross, giving our lives in sacrifice – while giving our lives to serve with the authority of God?


Imagine being chosen to represent God to the needy and given power to do miracles?  But realizing it comes with the cost of possibly losing your life?

My Cross?  What does this represent?

Would I submit my innocence, purity of heart and right-ness to be shamed or considered guilty?  When I am wronged, am rejected, feel used or taken advantage of for others gain…would I fight back or stand up for my rights and privileges…?  Or would I humbly give in – to be made a fool of?

Would I lose my life, giving up my rights, sacrificing my freedom, truth, power, innocence – for the sake of serving those undeserving, lower, poorer, more sinful…than me?  Are we as Christians called to be a stepping stones for others, or people who are willing to be “thrown under the bus?”


Dear Daddie God!  I have more deep, convicting and challenging questions for my motives and character, than I do answers!